It has been nearly 3 weeks since my transplant and I guess I should be happy with the results so far. Though I don't have anything to compare them to, I've been told I'm pretty lucky. So for that I am grateful, that and my sore throat is nearly gone. I have to think good thoughts today because I'm feeling very down about a lot of things. Now that I have settled in and routines have been made, I feel like a sick person because I can't do anything. I know it is for my own good, but geez I can't even change my own baby's diapers. I just kind of feel like I'm taking up space. I also miss my husband like crazy! I want to have energy but it takes all my energy just to eat a meal. Today it took me an hour to eat a half of a bagel and then felt nauseas for 3 hours after that.
So tonight I am going to bed to focus on happy, good thoughts so that tomorrow I might not cry. And even if I do, it can still be a good day.
Thanks Anita for watching the baby tomorrow for the doctor's appointment.
sending you lots of happy thoughts.
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